Flint
Aug 21st, 1849
My Dearest John,
I have at last received the long and anxiously looked out
for letter but have received it this night so you see how soon I answer
it. Yes, Dearest, nothing could of given
me more pleasure than to have received a letter from you for it is you that I
hold dearest in this World. Oh it was
this night that I first complained to myself about your long delay for I had
heard that Robert W. (Williams) had a letter this morning, but never mind,
dearest, I will forgive you. But, oh,
what hours to work from five to 7 o’clock.
Why, that is fourteen hours to work in a day. You ought to have good wages.
I am glad you like the place or else if you did not it would
be misery to be there and I wish you had someone you know for it would be much
more pleasant.
I did indeed feel for you when I heard that Price and you
had parted for the feel of parting with me. Parting was ___ but what must you
feel in parting in a strange land.
Oh! my dearest I cannot express
to you my feeling after parting with you.
Yes, it was not before you I showed my feelings, for you had enough on
your mind without me being the cause of more sorrow. Oh! how ____ the time goes by without
you. Yes I had someone to tell my mind
to, then back you was company besides, but now I have no one for company but I
have one that I can tell my mind to and I hope shall have if you are not here
for company. For, dearest, I shall make
myself as contented as I can in your absence.
But I am far from being contented since you have gone. Yes, I kept thinking you were in this danger
and in that I kept thinking altogether of the worst but you have not been
without my prayers ___ I have you by
myself and prayed for you when I would not have ___ for myself.
Yes, you have been the means of bringing me to the foot of
the cross and thank God my prayers have been heard on your behalf. He has brought you safe on distant shores,
yes, and has kept you till this moment.
Oh! take him to be your guide in a strange land. Look to him and all things shall work
together for good for he is a good friend when all earthly friends are passed
away. I’m so glad you met with some
English people and it is hard as hard you say to tell what anyone is ‘till you
know the act of time and take care of them but I dare say I have no occasion to
tell you that.
You’ll be forgetting all your Welsh now you have got with
the Yankees. What sort of people are
they? Are they anything like us? I am glad you have the pleasure of meeting
with your old friend. I am sure you were
glad to see one another and I am glad the place agrees with you, also with
him. I am glad there are not so much
Irish at your place as what there was at Lowell for they are a filthy race of
people.
Oh! my dearest, tell me have you ever regretted going? You know you can tell me for I am sure I
should tell no one. I must close for
tonight, it’s 12 o’clock.
Oh! John what sad news I have heard this morning. The bailiff’s in at Lloyds for Poor’s
___ ___. When my uncle heard that he ___ them in for
rent so here are two ___ ___. I am sorry for Mr. J. Lloyd and ___ for the rest of them for these
are ___ family. Poor things, poor Miss
Lloyd is ill in ___ Do not __ ___ Price
or ___ they would think I was going to ___ my brother…………
(A large chuck of this original page
5 is unreadable for me)
For I don’t want it now.
So I am sure of it now he has paid some of it.
I have been thinking to go to Liverpool. May shop there but my ____ wants me to go to
Holywell so I don’t know what to do.
What do you think, my father does not like me to go anywhere
from home and my brother is going to take the house and all. To what do you say ___ ___ ___ ___ told me to
take your advice if I want to. There has
been a cousin of mine from Manchester this last week and she has made my father
promise that my cousin Mr. Whitley and I should go there in about a month’s
time. He is a married one. My cousin Whitley is much more settled than
she used to be. She is keeping company
with a clergyman ___ ___ ___ She will
not be long on my list. She says it is
me she ought to thank __ ___ for her ___ to be thanking her for I used to be
always referring her of her fickleness for as I told you before that I ____ not
care who she spoke to.
Well well dearest time is going and I have been very busy
all this summer. But I have had only two jobs of __ this summer. But I have had a great deal of sewing making
shirts for both my brothers. I have not
been above four times at Watkins since you left home and when I went he always
said something about you and made me lower in spirits than I was. But I did not show it before him so dearest
it was all to myself. Yes there is not a
night but I cry myself to sleep especially the nights as you used to come ___
___ ___ But alas, there is no John there
to smile upon his Lizzy when entering.
No, those times are gone.
Oh! I hope to return or else it will be all up with your
Lizzy for no other one can she love -------; she had no heart for another; her
heart is in America with him. ------------
Oh! Dearest John I must not go on thus for I shall be making
you as low as myself. But I cannot help it;
I know my feelings overcome me. Oh!
dearest forgive me if I have said anything to hurt your feelings. I know my John will forgive his Lizzy.
I went to Holywell yesterday. I took the 1 o’clock train and returned with
the 10 o’clock one. I bathed after
coming home and the day before with my cousin but I don’t think I should of
bathed this week whatever you know. But
I don’t think I shall take any ___.
Mrs. Watkins is in a way and manner .
___ ___ is expecting to be confined any day. ___ ___ ___ __ is Robert’s schoolmaster and
you to America and all the family they say that ___ ___ is in a way by ___
Gardener. He has had to pay 17 pence a
week to John Williams . I hope it is not
true about Miss Fillpots. I have heard
that Mary Newall gets ____. I do not
know. I hope not. Sarah is as wild as ever. James Jones and her was very great when she
was at home. People had plenty to say after
you had gone. They said I was going
after you in about two months and __ was going to meet us in Boston. And I am telling on what they said but I must
stop it there with that. These things
are what we must expect while in this world.
Yes, there is not one ____.
My dearest I must conclude now or else I shall have too much
paper to put in the envelope. If I have
forgot anything I will tell it in my next.
My dearest John don’t be uneasy about me letting anybody know about our
correspondence. No, no one shall know by
you and myself for I know people will talk without occasion. No, no one but myself shall see you
letters. My father was very glad too
that I had a letter from you. He was and
he has been very good; indeed he has said when he sees me look low – Oh! John
will send a letter as soon as he can.
You may depend he desires to be kindly remembered to you and hopes you
will prosper. I am just going to
___.
Oh! my dearest I must close.
I feel loathe to stop for I know it is to me. John I am expecting you will excuse all my
imperfections and hand writings as you know who it comes from. I have enjoyed very good health but at first
when you went away I gave way very much but I am better now I have heard from
you. I send a small second also of my
brother; also a newspaper. Oh! my
dearest do write soon for I shall be going to Manchester . I think if you tell Price that you have had a
letter from me please present my kind regards to him. We are quite well.
Adieu adieu my dearest and my that God __ __ kept you. May he still keep you and preserve you and
prosper you in this World and the World to come is the most sincere prayer of
your ever faithful and sincere girl until death not tell.
Elizabeth Garner
In my next letter I will send you some postage stamps and
then you direct it ready and Williams can put it in the post if you like. Adieu adieu, write soon.
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